My backpack was huge, I had a painting wrapped in some crumpled paper and a scarf, and I was ready to unpack. When I arrived at the Ron Mandos Gallery in Amsterdam I was disoriented, not just from the early plane ride or only sleeping the night before but because this was the plan, the idea, the layout that we had been imagining for months.
I walked through the forest room, noting how the trees had come together since they’d fallen apart on moving day. The Cabaret Room wasn’t done yet and when I saw the worktable and the tools I knew, it was comforting. Within a half hour I was back to working along side the other interns again, hearing all about the highs and lows of the weeks I’d miss.
“It must be completely different for you to see it, since you’ve been away. You have kind of an outsiders perspective.”
It was different for me. I had been so enveloped by my responsibilities as an intern but after Rome and non stop working when I got to Morocco my brain kind of put it aside to look at a bigger picture. To be honest in my bigger picture, AA wasn’t nearly as important as I had made it during the work.
I also felt quite guilty about abandoning the other interns, it was obvious they’d done a lot of hard work while I was gone. When it’s 4am and you’ve been working since 10am, you share a kind of look with the person who’s been working along side you, I had lost the right to have this glance exchange and honestly I think it was that rather than the work that kept me going most of the time.
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Although a few days later, on opening night, I think we all felt it. We were proud and excited about finally getting to this moment we had worked towards for so long. We enjoyed ourselves at the after party, complete with Dub step DJs and the crew from Fuck for Forest.
Then it was time to part ways, Pedro on the train to Berlin, Serena, Winnie, and I in the car with the DJs, Sebastian stayed to visit some old friends, and Ford’s parents were meeting him to drive through France. All of a sudden we were wearing clothes that weren’t covered in paint and baushaum and it was kind of weird.